Mental health is something that is personal, and affects every single person differently. But this isn’t just a conversation for those who struggle with mental health difficulties – instead, it’s something that each and every one of us should be aware about. Just like keeping our bodies well, it’s as important, if not MORE important, that we take care of our minds.
When you enter a room, and see someone you know, they make ask the fairly standard question,
“How are you doing?”
How do you answer that question?
I guess really, that’s the crux of the problem I’m presenting you with. How often are we open, honest, and vulnerable with the people who we’re friends with? (and slightly controversially), I’m going to say, whether those friends are close, or not at all – it doesn’t matter, the question still remains.
I don’t know about you, but when I don’t know something, I’ll often try my best to find out the answer, or work out what’s going on. To put it bluntly, I don’t like not knowing. Even worse, is feeling out of control.
It can feel almost like a spiral. As if there’s one thing that I don’t know, and that’ll spark another question, and if they don’t get answered, then the anxiety starts to mount. Sometimes, it’s a quick fix: as simple as asking a couple of questions, and my mind is put to rest. But sometimes, it’s not that simple.
I haven’t really spoken much about what I’ve been doing this year, in terms of my internship. I mentioned it – only to explain how my plans had changed, but other than that, I’ve kept pretty quiet.
I’d like to change that though, as I’ve been learning an awful lot this year, and I think it’d be good for me to document this, as well as share it.
So… what have I learnt?
Somehow or other, we’ve reached the end of February. (At least, when I started this post, it was still February. Hello March!) That’s just crazy! I’m not sure I’ll ever understand time properly. For all I know, when I think I’ve got it, life suddenly speeds up again!
My gap year is pretty much half way through, and in a way, that’s terrifying. Where that time has gone, I have no clue. I guess, thinking back, I’ve managed to fill those 6 months with a fair amount, but it also seems to have gone by in a blink of an eye. And so, it’s not without much doubt, that I feel like I’ll be sitting here in 6 months’ time, trying to figure out where the past 6 months have gone. And that time, I’ll be in the midst of packing to go to university.
As I’m writing this, I’m sort of in a state of disbelief that 2017 is already over? Where has the time gone?
Having a birthday at the end of the year is pretty handy, as I’m able to look back on everything the year has held, sort of since my last birthday. One of my other favourite things to do at this time of year is to create a collage of events and achievements of this year, and when compiling the list, I’m always astounded at how much I manage to pack into a year! (I’ve hidden some names to keep their privacy – but you can get the picture!)
Here are a couple of my reflections about 2017 – as I’m looking into 2018, I want to learn from this year, but also appreciate all the opportunities I’ve had.