Dear Friends at University,
You may be coming home from uni, and your excitement is completely understandable, but…
I want to remind you that I’ve not been there, not yet done that. I haven’t met your new friends, nor experienced your new independent lives. For me, nothing much has changed. I have a job (that I had before), and one that I didn’t. I live in the same place, and have the same friends. Nothing much has changed at home, other than a new Sainsbury’s opening. And while I’m excited to see you all, and hear about your adventures, please be aware that I don’t have as many stories. Trust me, you don’t want to hear about Toddler group all the time.
If I seem at all distant, or seem disinterested, it’s not because I don’t care. It’s the opposite. I want to love you, and listen to what you’ve been up to. I want to grasp a bit of the life you’ve been living for the last three months, and see through a window into your new world. But that’s going to be really hard for me, and I really hope you can understand that.
I wasn’t supposed to be at home this Christmas, I always thought I’d be in Nepal. Being at home is where I’m supposed to be now, but my ‘adventures’ have taken a different direction. Life this year is challenging, but also about learning more about who I am. A change of pace is no bad thing, it’s just different.
When you come home, you’ll be on holiday. It’s Christmas time, and of course you’re going to be excited – it may be the first trip home for several months. But my life doesn’t suddenly stop in holidays any more – I’ll still be working. And so if I don’t stay out as long as you’d like, or maybe even don’t turn up at all, it’s not because you don’t matter. But I have to remember my priorities, and make sure I’m able to work to the best of my ability.
It’s also possible that it’ll be overwhelming for me. I wasn’t the biggest fan of big social situations before hand, and I have this picture of big, loud reunions, with people super excited to see each other again. If I’m slightly withdrawn, or hang back from the crowd, it’s because I’m trying to look after myself. I want to be able to give my all into our conversations, and give you my best. Come and see me, please do; I’ll really appreciate that. But please don’t be upset, or frustrated, if I don’t appear as excited as the rest of you.
I’m still looking forward to seeing you – it’s been a strange and weird couple of months with you gone – and so I’m excited to catch up, and give you hugs and love in a way that texts just can’t replace. I’m excited to celebrate one of the best seasons of you, without us all being swamped by impending mock exams, and just to see your faces again. You’re all great, and thank you for listening.
Lots of love,