Time for a lil’ life update…
Well, I guess this is “Hello”? I’ve tried to write this post a few times, but having realised how long it is since I last blogged, I guess there’s a bit of catching up to do. Also, since last time, we’ve passed Lion, Lamb and Me’s first birthday! I’m so excited that I’ve been blogging for a year, and even more excited for what the future may hold for this little space!
So here we go with a lil’ life update, before we march ahead into what the next season of life is for me…
Where did that summer go? I know that in the past, the summer has seemed to fly by, but this year, it feels as if it were only a few weeks ago that I was leaving my job, and starting the preparation for university. I spent a week on a music course, and had an absolute blast, and then went off adventuring with my family. I hope to put some blog posts together on that in the not too distant future, but for now, I’ll just say what a blessing it was to be able to spend a longer period of time with them all, seeing new things, making new memories, and having a laugh. Being able to look at the photos from Summer are definitely helping me feel not so far away from home, now I’ve moved to university.
Anyway, with that over in the blink of an eye, we sort of crash-landed into September. With only 5 days at home, it was straight into unpacking, saying my goodbyes, packing (again), and last minute bits and bobs. One of the definite highlights of those 5 days was going to the theatre…to see ‘Hamilton’!! Having managed to get tickets in the January release, I have been looking forward to seeing this for a while…and it didn’t disappoint! It was so cool to be able to see the soundtrack brought to life; through staging, costumes, dance and actual people (and I definitely had a few ‘revelatory’ moments when I sat there thinking “Oh, so YOU’RE the person who sings that line..!”)
But, before we knew it, it was time to load the car up, and Mum and I set off on our rather lengthy, journey up to Scotland. I don’t think it had sunk in at this point; nor for a day or so yet, what I was actually about to do. All we kept telling ourselves was: “We’re on a road trip.”
Confessions of a Fresher
I guess this is where we get to this bit. To the point of this: me wanting to share just a little bit of what this week has been like, but also some encouragement, if you’re about to start your own Freshers’ week, or even just a new year of university.
Let’s just say this. Freshers’ week is unlike anything else I’ve experienced before. It’s full on, good fun, but also pretty overwhelming at times. I’ve tried to sit and write this several times this week, but never got further than a couple of lines. It’s exhausting, and sometimes you have to take note of that, rather than pushing through it.
I may be one of the more unusual people, in looking forward to Freshers’ week being over. But then again, I could not be – yet it’s so assumed that all you can do in Freshers is party, drink, and repeat, that I’m sure there are people out there for whom this week has been very different.
Myself included. On the whole, I’ve had a fab week – but it’s been tough. It’s been great meeting so many people: but if you know me, you’ll also know that this isn’t something I find easy. As a self-confessed introvert, social situations are draining. I prefer to do my social interaction on a small scale, with one or two people at a time; and this week I’ve been thrown into places where there are tens, if not hundreds of people to meet. I don’t feel ashamed in admitting that this is hard…and it takes a lot out of me. By knowing this about myself, I know how to do something about it. Yes, I’ve persevered, but there have been times to retreat.
In that kind of situation, I’d say to a fellow fresher: know yourself, and stay true to that. If it feels like too much, it’s not admitting defeat to spend a night in. In fact, one of my favourite evenings this week was when I was tucked in bed, catching up on GBBO, with a Krispy Kreme doughnut in one hand, and a cup of tea in the other.
To begin with, moving in at uni almost feels like going on a summer camp. Yet, the longer you’re here, and the more ‘normal’ things you have to do, like cooking, or washing…the more it starts to sink in that actually, we’re here for the long haul.
It would have been so easy, in a week like this, for me to slip back on those masks that I used to hide behind, and go along as if everything was fine. When I was feeling homesick, or overwhelmed, to just carry on as normal, and not let anyone in. Yet, to do so would almost be to erase everything I worked towards last year, and so, when those moments hit (and yes, they do; and that’s completely normal), I not only spoke to my family, but also to my flatmate.
Having a wobble is pretty normal. I don’t think I quite comprehended how much of a change it would be to actually move away from home until I got here. Yes, I knew I was worried about it; but it was what needed to come next. But being here, and imagining it, are two very different things. I know that I’m still learning the ropes, and it’ll be a while before this feels like ‘home’. It may be a few weeks before I’m settled, but in reality, it’ll be a few months. If you’re a fresher, please don’t jump into Freshers’ week with the expectation of feeling at home within the week. Especially not after a week like Freshers!
And I know this has been a bit of a ramble, but I’ve really enjoyed just getting back to blogging. I’ve just got one last thing I want to share with you before I wrap this one up.
This week, I’ve thrown myself into new things, but I started the whole week off by going and visiting a Church. I’ve been to CU events, and met new, encouraging Christians who are in so many different places along their walk. But throughout it all – I’ve been reminded of that promise, that I’m never, ever, on my own.
As these rainbows, just outside my halls, reminded me, God’s promises don’t fade. He doesn’t forget His promises, and they are everlasting. For each and every one of us, if we choose to trust him.
When the waters rise, or I’m feeling overwhelmed, it would be so easy to look down, into the water. Instead, by lifting my eyes – and giving it to the one who knows all, who loves forever – I’m infinitely in a better position.
As we sung on Friday night – this will be my anthem for the next few weeks:
I will build my life upon Your love
It is a firm foundation
I will put my trust in You alone
And I will not be shaken
From the small things, to the big things, I will trust. I’m not doing this on my own, and instead of seeing this as a daunting new chapter, I’m seeing this as the beginning of an exciting new journey; and I’m ready to see not only where God takes me, but what He’ll use me for, and what the next few years may hold.
Freshers’ has only been the beginning of that… and there’s so much more to come.
Till next time,